It's been a heck of a while, i don't know where to start since my brain is still half awake from waking up in very early in the morning. ok, let's start then, *sitting up straight* *breathe in* breathe out* *scratch my nose* and start tapping the keys.

School's been a drag yet fun. Well, for an instance the mere subject of Physics--the calculator slipped off my mind, the calculator i forgot (once again) and acted out like an idiot without it. I still have other stuff to do and do people's stuff too. Actually. . .my artsy skills needs a boost, since I, lately, have been helping out with other academic clubs' bulletin board (whoah, what a way to waste my magic touches) lemme see, there's the book lovers club, the kulay-ful of them all. Ha-ha! i really appreciated it when Veverly commented about the letterings. "Ngayon lang naging maganda ang bulletin board ng Book Lovers club, mas maganda na ngayon" she says. Well, nothing would make me happier than comments from my works of art (regarding to the fields of ART, of course, there are numerous things that would make me happy other than that). The T.H.E. club, gosh. back to the drawing board, dagdag pa yung Nutrition month. .I'm gonna be a heck busy for it. (Though why should I? I'm just a member, and on top of that Ariane is the president and Raymond is the V-President).

The Science Club, hmmm. .nothing much just a sketch-that's all. And same goes to Math club, pero ang dating is sporty at sa THE reggae. Oh, Marco is my seat mate and not the first time. I get irritated a lot since he always like to pinch my cheeks and sometimes smack me from the head (even though it didn't hurt, i still hate it) Like he's been doing it since we're sophomores, i don't hate him, it's just that I'm not very comfortable with him as a seat mate, not to mention something he just told me the other day. . .uh. . .it's a bit unusual though it blew my mind about him. I never expect to even a guy from him to have 'that' kind of 'experience' (heh, get the picture?), Aside from the negatives, he's really a nice guy.

There were other days when there was full of laughter--during English classes, i had a fun time being grouped with Minette, Mateo, and Marco. We just can't stop laughing our asses off. And there was P.E. class, the CAUSE why my whole body aches lately--i mean, can't cough, can't laugh, and if i did, my stomach will feel an unpleasant and painful feeling. My legs were aching, i can't walk very well or even just standing up. The pain. . .the pain. . .i'm hungry. . xD That's it! no more jumping ropes for me. . .hehe, kidding aside. And also, days when I notice people crying of a sudden--it definitely concurred a lot of issues but at the end of the day, tears were gone.

*`*Saturday + Sunday.

I hold no grudge against you, at all. It's just that i feel withdrawn, withdrawn to the world you and Eka created, i wanted to share to you what happened to me lately, i mean everything. But as everyday passes i felt that you'd prefer her company than mine since both of you have a lot in common and all, and i really don't want to be out of place. I see that every thing's fine when both Cham & Eka are there for you and may i say that you are blessed to have friends like them, Huh, i guess i had it coming. The cold heart I'm showing, the way it seems na iniiwasan kita--i can't look straight to your eyes, siguro nasanay ako nung last year--when you had other company while i was with other people.

Another thing, do you remember the feud happened in Multiply? after that, i question myself to how much I've changed over the years. How people affected and changed me, for how certain people made me feel weak and no confidence, how I've treated them with respect and taunts, or even how much I've mistreated you and other people I've known. That is why, I've been searching for myself to what and to where i stand. To reflect to all the wrong things I've done, and to the changes happened to me and lately, I've been praying. I'm sorry for not telling you, You did gave me a chance to talk but i was so afraid that the right words might not come out or how should i say it, I'm sorry for that. I guess you hate me, or maybe you don't trust me anymore. Yhep, i deserve it for a bitch like me to do these things. I'm sorry, it must've been hard for you as it was for me. If you won't talk to me, I'll post a picture to show how much i let you down.