So expect this post to be poorly worded and potentially random.

*`*Busy, Busy bee. . .

School's been a major scramble in my head, it will be not long enough till the exams, no wonder books never my bag is always full of books, etc.--sigh, i wish there was a way to escape from the perils that are the major pain in the ass.

iilang weeks na hindi pa rin mawala tong lintik na ubo ko.

August is almost here, its St. Dominic's month baby! we're gonna pig out, hehe. . .which reminds me, i haven't done that poster of St. Dominic as one of my assigned stuff in our classroom, Mateo thought of an idea that i should draw or paint it instead although i really don't want people to get the idea of me boasting or showing off but i would spend less since i do have materials for that matter.

There's nothing you could do or say, you're gonna break my heart anyway just leave the pieces when you go.

*Me: "Ate, meron ba kayong first season ng Naruto?".

*Lady:"Wala na, pero meron kaming bago yung Shinppuden. . .kalaban na ni Naruto dyan si Sasuke.".

*Me: "Ate, *while pointing at the Samurai X cd* kompleto ba yung episodes nito?.

*Lady: "Oo, meron pang tatlong movies--yung isang latest is yung namatay na siya at yung isa naman kung paano niya nakuha yung x sa mukha niya."

And then she kept surprising me back more about anime, wow, she knew more about Samurai x than I am, anime addict?--oh yes, she is. We can't stop non-stop about anime, really. I got a little ecstatic that i even jumped for joy. I even ordered for Card Captor Sakura Cds, not for myself but i know that my classmate, Minette is an addict for CCS and there's no way she's not gonna accept my offer :p. At the end, i bought the Samurai x DVD.

*`*TGIF.

Hell yeah! I'm so effing relieved that finally its friday, the only day when me (and other studes) have the chance to freak out like the teenagers we are. The first friday mass, ok so it was today--i love the feeling of attending the Eucharist, it makes my mind feel at ease. Today was a bit different since i felt like hanging out with Denise, Beta and Ariadne at lunch--it's been a while since I've last talked to them, just like hanging out with younger sisters. And during our subject in Algebra, i found myself very moody and pissed off for some reason (mood swings?)--though i hate Math :p. I wanted to cool my head off though. . .hindi ako mapakali, went to another area where my mind could wonder off to something else and before i realize it, i was with Anaw and the dance troupe of the Dance club. Actually when the music was turned up, i was already up in the beat for dancing (hehe, techno kasi yung genre) but they were doing their routine and i wouldn't want to barge in.

There's a girl freshie that kept my eye for a while--she's so mahinhin, like, she has to glance at someone near her and covers her mouth with her handkerchief. I know she's still very young, it's natural. .but, she needs to open up and show her true colors. P.S. i don't know her name.

Oh great, it rained. The try-outs for the basketball would have to be settled in Monday, good luck guys. .i mean girls. Even though it was still 4 pm, i really had to go home--coz' mom doesn't want me arriving late without any reasonable explanation. One of these days i really want to have my hair trimmed since my bangs have grown inches and its getting really annoying, changed clothes and went to Nepo mall.

**What really surprised me is while i was in the jeepney, of course I had to extend my fare to a little girl next to me to pay for it--this little girl looked straight at my eyes, and i just ignored her. Again she looked at me with a sly smile, ignorant i was to the little girl.

"Ikaw si Ate Melanie?"

"Ikaw ehy?" i said back.

"Alyssa, yung sa Bolosan"

I was dumbfounded and surprised when a kid like her turned out to be one of the students whom i assisted Mateo's assigned class. Her name, her face etched in my mind since then, how nice naman. The first thing i did at the Nepo was to look at the hair salons: Ystilo and David's salon, i didn't know which is better. I wasn't able to get my hair done because of that, then of a sudden, i saw classmates and batch mates having their pictures developed. Weird thing is, they can't stop questioning about my feet, what's up with my feet anyways? just because i wore flip flops doesn't mean its not out of the ordinary and it ain't that big. After all that fuss, I directly went to where mom works, in Upang. It turns out that she really needed help but i didn't know, good thing a strong feeling overcome me to leave the jeepney. Hehe, i had the privilege to peak in the personal computer at the lounge, yeah! free internet--and played a little bit of Super Mario. At the end of the day, it's all good. .along with a taste of combined purple and red slurpy. haha, seriously i did combined two flavors.

*`*Daily Headtrip.

*I've been having weird dreams, and each of them; a certain person is always present. Well, its not the first time it happened. Just wondering, thats all.

*I saw Jose the other day, with highlights and those thick glasses-it was just a split second. I saw Warren, near the jeepney- i had to ignore. The new guy at our batch is weird--i couldn't careless. That third year dude is weirder--I'm SO not comfortable with him na.

*Anaw sent me one of the-made-up-words-from-scrap-that-turned-into-something-nice lyrics, wow i should really learn from her.

*According to my resources, Avril Lavigne's "Girlfriend" happens to have comparison from song by a 70's band.

*I wanna watch Harry Potter, Hairspray, High school musical 2, the Simpsons movie, surf's up, transformers.

*Daniel looks so. . .fag. (btw, its the next cover for candymag).



*I might change my blog's layout, its getting boring.

*There are loads of work to do for tomorrow, hopefully it ends once and for all.

"It's already. . ."dismissal that repeated like the other days. Anaw and I, sipping our iced coffee mocha while having our long waited conversation at the swings midst the sun set. Sip after sip we can't stop mentioning the same old topics, its just like it circulated in our daily lives to repeat the exact topics that seemed like forever. "Wasted! Nosebleed!" hahah, words that kept me laughing when we gradually spoke carabao english to ease the humid atmosphere till we were disturbed by Renz and David.

. .Disasteerrr.

(Renz? given a permission to enter a priesthood life? well. . .Amen to that). We walked around and around to find another safe haven away from the ultra violet rays, when I was stroking the chords while singing Your Guardian Angel--a light bulb flashed in Anaw's mind, "Mag-compose tayo!" i totally agreed to that since there wasn't a better thing to do. Rejuvenated as I am to have the mood for composing songs, well another project in Music is at need. Anyways, i often thought that composing songs was mixing different nonsense to make up a masterpiece. For that, i don't want to shovel the very highs and lows of composing-songs-or-whatsoever. But. . .saying what you really feel and putting them into a rhythm really made it feel so right, (it was like. . .Alleliuah! and oowwwwww. . .i feel g0od! LOL) .

Nice. . .

Kath:*thinking* dang, i forgot to wear underwear. LOL

Guess who Jamy is looking at.

Look at Cham & Kath's faces. . .(balew)

my cam picturing cham's cam.

hihi, Cham's bringing sexy back :p

Stolen shot dude!

Si Charlyn, hihi :)

It's been a heck of a while, i don't know where to start since my brain is still half awake from waking up in very early in the morning. ok, let's start then, *sitting up straight* *breathe in* breathe out* *scratch my nose* and start tapping the keys.

School's been a drag yet fun. Well, for an instance the mere subject of Physics--the calculator slipped off my mind, the calculator i forgot (once again) and acted out like an idiot without it. I still have other stuff to do and do people's stuff too. Actually. . .my artsy skills needs a boost, since I, lately, have been helping out with other academic clubs' bulletin board (whoah, what a way to waste my magic touches) lemme see, there's the book lovers club, the kulay-ful of them all. Ha-ha! i really appreciated it when Veverly commented about the letterings. "Ngayon lang naging maganda ang bulletin board ng Book Lovers club, mas maganda na ngayon" she says. Well, nothing would make me happier than comments from my works of art (regarding to the fields of ART, of course, there are numerous things that would make me happy other than that). The T.H.E. club, gosh. back to the drawing board, dagdag pa yung Nutrition month. .I'm gonna be a heck busy for it. (Though why should I? I'm just a member, and on top of that Ariane is the president and Raymond is the V-President).

The Science Club, hmmm. .nothing much just a sketch-that's all. And same goes to Math club, pero ang dating is sporty at sa THE reggae. Oh, Marco is my seat mate and not the first time. I get irritated a lot since he always like to pinch my cheeks and sometimes smack me from the head (even though it didn't hurt, i still hate it) Like he's been doing it since we're sophomores, i don't hate him, it's just that I'm not very comfortable with him as a seat mate, not to mention something he just told me the other day. . .uh. . .it's a bit unusual though it blew my mind about him. I never expect to even a guy from him to have 'that' kind of 'experience' (heh, get the picture?), Aside from the negatives, he's really a nice guy.

There were other days when there was full of laughter--during English classes, i had a fun time being grouped with Minette, Mateo, and Marco. We just can't stop laughing our asses off. And there was P.E. class, the CAUSE why my whole body aches lately--i mean, can't cough, can't laugh, and if i did, my stomach will feel an unpleasant and painful feeling. My legs were aching, i can't walk very well or even just standing up. The pain. . .the pain. . .i'm hungry. . xD That's it! no more jumping ropes for me. . .hehe, kidding aside. And also, days when I notice people crying of a sudden--it definitely concurred a lot of issues but at the end of the day, tears were gone.

*`*Saturday + Sunday.

I hold no grudge against you, at all. It's just that i feel withdrawn, withdrawn to the world you and Eka created, i wanted to share to you what happened to me lately, i mean everything. But as everyday passes i felt that you'd prefer her company than mine since both of you have a lot in common and all, and i really don't want to be out of place. I see that every thing's fine when both Cham & Eka are there for you and may i say that you are blessed to have friends like them, Huh, i guess i had it coming. The cold heart I'm showing, the way it seems na iniiwasan kita--i can't look straight to your eyes, siguro nasanay ako nung last year--when you had other company while i was with other people.

Another thing, do you remember the feud happened in Multiply? after that, i question myself to how much I've changed over the years. How people affected and changed me, for how certain people made me feel weak and no confidence, how I've treated them with respect and taunts, or even how much I've mistreated you and other people I've known. That is why, I've been searching for myself to what and to where i stand. To reflect to all the wrong things I've done, and to the changes happened to me and lately, I've been praying. I'm sorry for not telling you, You did gave me a chance to talk but i was so afraid that the right words might not come out or how should i say it, I'm sorry for that. I guess you hate me, or maybe you don't trust me anymore. Yhep, i deserve it for a bitch like me to do these things. I'm sorry, it must've been hard for you as it was for me. If you won't talk to me, I'll post a picture to show how much i let you down.